GoodAfternoon ! I'm so bored at home now . Everyone are still sleeping , and me ? I'm playing my comp . HAHA . Today is a SATURDAY & im still stuck at home . Let me tell you why . . . I was actually VERYVERYVERY excited to meet bie today . And he promised me he won't paitaw this tyme , after he paitaw me 2 times . . So , i msg bie last night to confirm with hym the time & place to meet hym later today , & to my HORROR , Muhd Fauzy Bin Abdul Rahman paitaw Nur Zakirah Bte Mesron , AGAIN . This tyme his reason is , " I maen bola , then terjatuh and tergolek semue , kaki i saket and i jalan pon tempang . " WTH ? " So , jyeaah i quarreled with hym again & Im FUCKING SICK of all this . Now , you tell me , how can i not be angry ? OFCOURSE i was ANGRY . *Banyaklah kau peyh janji* , kononnye cakap ngan aku kau tk kan paitaw LAGYK . You and your * BULLSHITS * ; sweet messages , KAU boleyh gi tanam dalam2 uhhk . *WINKS* Continuing . . So what happened ? We quarelled again . It was from 11pm to 1am++ KecohKecoh . For some reasons i just can't TAKE IT ANYMORE . Muhd FAUZY , you just don't seem to UNDERSTAND me . Maybe you just don't care ? From what i think , you just CAN'T BE BOTHERED . All you will say is , " I mane pernah serious . " Then , YOU BETTER BE serious . I don't want us to regret one day , just because we just can't settle thing out , even the minor ones . But seriously , you better sit & think about it Muhd Fauzy . All that i've done for you , has always effect me . Have you ever realised ? All you know is to find my faults and to keep talking about my past . What for ? I've been understanding to you , and know its killing me . What do i get ? When you said sorry , you think it helps ? Not even a SINGLE bit . Because i'm SOOO used to it & i know it will happen again . Sometimes i asked myself , why do i keep forgiving ? Why do i always say sorry , even whem i'm not in the wrong ? Doing all those to please you . I feel the PAIN while you just cant be bothered , is it . You keep on thinking that i'm "into boys" type of girl . GIVE me your proof ! All those fake stories of mine , is for my own good , or i will never know if you really love me , boy . . If i have got better guys , i won't be begging for you not to break with me , i won't be crying whenever we quarrel . " Aku bukan pmpuan busted lah kay . " Kau sindih2 aku , kau cakap aku budak express tapy bodoh , kau kate aku " gatal " , kau kate aku penipu , kau kate aku keras kepale , kau maki aku sial . WHAT'S ALL THIS ? Have i lyke ever make it a big issue ? I just keep it , cause i can't be bothered to quarrel with you , NO POINT . Cause you ain't gonna change . I just hope one day , you could WAKE up , open your eyes & use your intelligent brain to think . Sorry for the long post about me & Muhd Fauzy . I'm not in the mood . Byeeeeeeee !
